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Wallowing

8 Apr

I can’t deny it; I’ve been having an extra tough time since Sebastian went back to Germany. So much so that I let it take over my life this past weekend. I’m embarrassed to say I spent 80 percent of the time in bed and may or may not have finished an entire season of Mad Men. So many questions were running through my head and overwhelming me. How long are we going to do this? Are we ever going to end up in the same place? Why does long-distance have to be so hard? And then on Sunday I broke down.

But luckily, I broke down in front of Sebastian on Skype. He is such an incredibly understanding guy. I was a blubbering, snotty mess, and he stayed there with me, letting me cry it out. And then something really good happened. I stopped feeling sorry for myself. I remembered, despite the ups and downs, long-distance is worth it. I remembered he’s worth it. So after we hung up the call, I picked myself up out of bed, pulled it together and stopped wallowing in self-pity. I know it won’t always be like this, and if I’m patient, everything will work out some day.

So here’s to feeling better. Here’s to feeling normal. And here’s to all the long-distance lovers out there. This one’s for you.

dance in the rain

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